I got to hold her for an hour tonight. as soon as she snuggled into my bosom as started sat-ing (o2 saturation) over 100!! they usually keep her between 88-94. so she got to go down 10%on the oxygen they give her. it was really touching to be able to soothe her. I'm still getting anywhere from 100-120ml each time I pump. it's really hard for me to remember whn I pumped last. I think I'm pumping about every 3-4 hours. the lactation consultant said that I could go up to 6 hours at night as long as I pump 8-10 times a day. I woke up in pain at about 4.5 hours last night.. no way I could sleep for 6!! I'm so excited to hold her tomorrow- though I'm still trying to get thadd to do it! he's really nervous. it's cute. I'm nervous too- don't get mer 6!! I'm so excited to hold her tomorrow- though I'm still trying to get thadd to do it! he's really nervous. it's cute. I'm nervous too- don't get me wrong! and it does hurt my heart to have ALL those tubes and wires coming off of her. I'm SO jealous of women who can have healthy babies! (not that she isn't healthy- but you know what I mean) I guess I should say full term babies. so- remember the blessing that is 3rd trimester discomfort!! it's something that I may never get to experience for myself. bummer. but I know that having wren at all is a blessing in itself... I guess we all have something to envy if we let ourselves. it's about learning to be content with what god has given us... whatever the situation. i've recently been reminded by a wise woman that each of our individual situations prepare us for some purpose. thadd and I losing max, and now going through this trial with wren, it helps us to really be able to work with others... and hopefully help them through similar problems.