may 1- new underwear=new woman!

here are a few updates:
i just want to sleep!!! at night! it would be sooo great! but, god, in his infinite wisdom saw pregnancy as a time for a woman to get ready for having a baby... hehe.. so i guess the tossing and turning and getting up to pee is just all part of it. this month- the body pillow cometh! i'm salivating at the possibility of a few hours of uninterrupted sleep. i'll keep you posted, that morning when i wake up having slept solidly for a night will be big news. (though it may not happen until wren is born and months old)
also, weird thing: i discovered this morning that if i roll over without supporting my belly i pull a muscle in my side. isn't that cool? haha.. i guess it's the little things. maybe i should just sleep in my belly brace so i don't have to worry about it.... sexy!
I GOT A NEW BRA!!!! and it mostly fits!! woo-hoo! i have to tell you, new underwear=new woman! i just keep asking thadd- "don't my boobs look great?" it's pretty funny that i'm WAY more excited about them than he is at this point. (i'm sure that will reverse back to it's natural balance once the newness of the bra wears off. :) i just might order ANOTHER one. scandal! having, not 1, but 2 bras that fit! i ended up going with jcpenny, because they had some decent quality, cheaper options. since i'm not sure where my size will level out i didn't want to drop the big bucks just yet. once my size levels off i'll invest in several nice ones. (what? i'm spoiled now!) it's a great feeling to not have my chest resting on my growing belly!!! it's a 38g. in retrospect i should have gone with an h. the g is really a bit tight right now. but i wanted to shoot under rather than over. the fs were WAY too small and i just wanted anything, RIGHT NOW, that would give me some relief! sidenote: it's a nursing bra as well, and it has really great clasps that you have to pinch to release. they're super supportive and secure. the f nursing bras that i was wearing had a clasp that you just pulled up to release... which is fine, until you pull your strap up, and accidentally release the whole boob in public unintentionally! overall, i'm one happy underwear girl right now. (now.. low rise, soft, cotton, panties anyone?)
i talked to my doc yesterday. (she called in something for my big Y problem... y=yipee-right?) she also gave me the update on my blood work. the last visit i had a blood thickness test and my anti-d antibody checked. good news- the 30mg/twice daily is maintaining a good level of blood thickness. (seriously though, if they said i could just to 60mg/once a day i would be SOOO happy!) bad news- my anti-d is back up to a 2. if you remember, it started as a 2, went down to a 1. they were going to continue to check it until it went to 0. (though they decided it was just residual from the rhogam shot in jan.) now it's back up. she said they don't have to do anything until it gets to 16... so everything is fine for now. she said it also could just be the margin of error for the lab. (good thing to find out- right?) and we'll keep checking it.
today i got a call to reschedule my appointment. it was set for the 11th. (which would have been 3 weeks instead of my normal 2- but they didn't have any other openings.) the scheduler said that the doc wanted to see me for the regular 2, and that she made a slot for me on the 7th. it's not that much earlier- but hey, at least i get to hear that sweet heartbeat sooner. (and i hope there's nothing crazy going on that made her want to see me sooner! seems like they would have shared that with me. right?)
those are the updates.....

march 12- not too much new news

still no word on my labs. my next appointment isn't until the 20th. so... i'm just anxiously awaiting that appointment. i'm thinking of buying a doppler. anyone had any good luck/bad luck with these? i'm going CRAZY not being able to check on the baby regularly. :/ my next ultrasound appointment won't be until probably the first week in april.
i'm going to put up a picture of my 38I bra. (it came in the mail... and it's a size too big... only a size- but you should see it!!! it's hilarious! thadd just laughed and laughed when i held it up... but then when it almost fit- he was sorta in shock!) i'm going to hang onto it- i'm sure i'll grow into it before too long!
i pretty much can't watch tv at all anymore. i just cry and cry... everything is either so happy or so sad.

feb 26- the tale of two cities

caution: this is the documented life story of my boobs

sooo.. here's the story: before max, since high school, i'd been wearing a DD. while pregnant with max i got up to about a G. i found G bras at motherhood, in the nursing bra section... no problem!
well, after max, the G's that i had weren't fitting, and the DD's weren't fitting either. so in november i got measured at victoria's secret- THE bra store right?- and they tell me that they don't carry my size. :/ i was practically in tears! the saga of my chest has always been one that depresses me. always having to get up and dress them everyday... not being able to wear "cute" shirts and dresses for fear of disastrous cleavage! anyway... so, victorias secret not carrying my size was equivalent to a death sentence for even more of my clothes!
in december, thadd and i are going through the mall here in hawaii and they have a fredricks. i'd never shopped there before- but hey- there are bras in the window! i go in, get measured, and sure enough, i'm an F now. woo-hoo! they carry my size! and they have cute ones too! (let's be real, we all want cute undies!) and they're relatively cheap! i was happy for like a week!
so i wear the F for mere weeks, then we discover we're pregnant again. my immediate thought (after the pure joy) is- uh oh, i'm going to have to find more bras! so i wear the F and then the Gs and then after a few months the Gs aren't fitting anymore. so, last week, i find a reputable measurement site, (there are lots of sites that can't be trusted- so be careful if you're looking) and get out my tape measure. 38I people! i'm not kidding. that's I as in Igloo! and where does a person find a 38I you may be asking... well, i'm asking the same question!!! i've googled my little heart away and found little to nothing. (and there's certainly no selection for me in styles i'd really wear!) my sister calls most of them "vintage"... like a 20s era cone bra that goes halfway down to your belly button. i just. will. not. wear. that! i just don't go for cone-ish boobs. if you happen to own this bra---------------->
then please take no offense... it's just not for me.
i did find 1 (one!) at lane bryant. now, mind you, they have TONS of cute bras that they carry in a whole gamut of sizes. (like my favorite, 56B!) but they have 1 (yes ONE!) that they carry in 38I. and it was on clearance. so i ordered it immediately. i don't want to buy 3 or 4 and then outgrow them next month. so i just ordered one. nordstrom's had one as well- it was $88. i didn't order that one. (i'm almost that desperate- but not quite.)
jeez, where do i go from here? i wasn't a G with max until the second trimester. so who knows what the fleck will transform me into! i could be an M or something... i shudder to think. i really hope that nursing will bring me back down to a reasonable size. otherwise i'm just going to have to gain a ton of weight to offset a really enormous chest!
resources, anyone? where can i get non-plus sized large cup sizes? pleeeeease help! i'm out of options.
(anyone have the number to omar the tent maker?)