may 28- trying to stay positive...

i feel like i'm becoming "that person"... there's so much drama in my life right now. i'm all about full disclosure- and i really wanted this blog to encourage other people who've had high risk pregnancies... i thought it would also help me to work through my feelings. but lately i haven't felt like sharing- i think i'm just feeling beat down and silly and dependent on others for help/prayers constantly. this pregnancy is a roller coaster, and will continue to be..
are you bored with this? i am getting depressed and bored and tired. i wonder if other high risk moms feel this way. we knew going into this pregnancy that there were risks- and that things could happen- but apparently 26 weeks of uncertainty is about where i draw the line. are we planning on doing this again? as of now- we don't know.
i'm just tired. i am just emotionally drained now. i long with every fiber of my being for wren to be safe and healthy and happy.... and the not knowing is soooo hard! i ENVY all of you women who will get pregnant and have children without much of a second thought to anything but morning sickness and drooling! i'm trying to work through my hard feelings about that- i know it doesn't do any good.
i also know that i am blessed! to have my great god, my life, my health, my amazing husband, and this sweet little wren kicking me incessantly! :)
for now, i'm just trying to learn to let that be enough.